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Well Deserved

Today was a beautiful day. The pain in my shoulder dissipated overnight. The sky was bright blue and the weather is warm.

Today’s self-centered tarot card is 1 Prosperity Begins from the Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck by John Holland. I love the card! A well tended peach tree reminds me of my grandpa. He grew the best peaches.

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Prosperity Begins

This deck is unique in its presentation of symbolism and archetypes choosing to use the chakra system for its emotional foundation rather than the typically astrologically based tarot. Though it is an oracle card deck.

Today’s card is the color red. Red is the hardest color to see due to its low frequency. It represents the root chakra which, is all about having your basic human needs met such as food, water, and shelter. It goes deeper though to your family of origin and how your needs were met. Still it goes deeper into your family line, genetics, DNA. Finally, the root chakra connects us to Earth.

My basic needs are met. But, my body is going through changes constantly. It is hard to feel settled when you become aware of your body on a cellular level. And start feeling the light drag through your fingers as you walk the same way water does when you go swimming.

These amazing experiences make it difficult to relate to other people. Ever since the March Solar eclipse my life has been challenging. It’s like everyone wants to touch my open wounds. There was a span of four weeks when I didn’t even have a chance to go crystal shopping. Yesterday made up for it though. Two massive crystals were found in the ground and wrapped in leather next to our irrigation valve. One is quartz. The other is red and yellow jasper. Beautiful! My neighbor wanted me to place the jasper so it would face his house.

I’m so glad this card came up today. It started feeling like things were cheering up this morning. Events throughout the day confirmed it for me and this card I suppose solidifies it. This deck is hard for me to use, because it really makes me push through the blockages. Things are looking up!

Time for one last day at work before a well deserved road trip! Yellowstone here I come.

~Athena

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Loving Yourself

Today was a bright blue sunny day. Cold wind, but nice Sun. Spring will be here soon and I cannot wait. Especially after drawing today’s card.

Today’s Self-centered Tarot Card is the 5 of Emotions from the Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck by John Holland. The card has beautiful colors and the wonderful geometry of the golden mean. You can tell the subject is deeply hurt. The pain in his eyes and brow is quite evident as is the covering of his heart chakra with his hands. Although he is now hurting, the Sun is there in the background. The sacred geometry pouring fourth from the man’s heart illustrate the great depth and meaning of events that have transpired.
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This card makes me cry. It seems as though I have been struggling so much with my emotions lately. My father had a stroke a couple of years ago that really affected me deeply. Relating to him is quite different. It is hard to face the fact that my dad just cannot be there for me the way he used to be. The person I was romantically involved with at the time dumped me shortly thereafter. I believe that individual was either a divine catalyst or a twin flame. Either way the double whammy really did a number on me.

These events have left me with much the same countenance as the man in the card. Pensive, hurt, and knowing there is a depth here that cannot go unnoticed. Powerful growth is underway. Growth in my ability to love myself. It is not an easy task in this world. Especially after untold number of failed romantic relationships. All of them seeming to fail to bring me to this point. A point where I must speak my own truth and truly pay attention to another’s actions. Actions speak much louder than words.

John Holland says, “Honor your feelings. Only by healing and loving yourself — by letting go of the past — can you continue your journey. The suffering associated with this loss delivers profound wisdom and knowledge for your soul.” Indeed it has delivered me to myself, perhaps the greatest gift of all. Holland provides hope, “Focus all your positive energy on the good in your life and what you’re grateful for. Use your healing energy in this way and try not to focus on what you’ve lost, for new beginnings and happiness are just around the corner.”

~Athena

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Change, Realignment and Freedom

Today is a beautiful grey. Clouds shroud the Sun, but its light shines through casting shadows in our living room. We’re home today enjoying time together.

My Self-centered Tarot card of the day is 5, Throat Chakra from The Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck by John Holland. The blue image on the card is a circle within a triangle within a circle surrounded by lotus petals, the throat chakra symbol.

The number five signifies change, realignment, and freedom. The throat chakra is all about truth.

Lastnight I had a powerful dream. I was hoping today’s card would provide some insight. Apparently, the dream is about truth, change, and realignment. All very interesting considering the sexual nature of my dream.

~ Athena