The last two nights I dreamt of my twin flame. He has been removed from my physical life for nearly three years. He left me, and shortly after married someone else (insert tear).
He appeared in my dreams two nights ago. Upon awakening I knew he had been in my dreams, but that is all. He was Wearing dark red leather. That’s all I got on the conscious level.
Last night he appeared again. This time he was next to me in bed. I asked the burning question, “Why did you leave me and marry someone else?” He responded by covering his head. As if I was beating him with a broom or something. Dissatisfied with the response I awakened disappointed. It seems there is no satisfying response on the physical or dream planes.
The twin flame path is an interesting balance between physical, metaphysical, and unconditional love. Maybe the dream space allowed me to ask the question I have been most curious about, so that if and when the twin does arrive, I won’t be beating him over the head with the past.
This morning I placed a tumbled Ametrine crystal in my bra. Ametrine is a combination of Amethyst and Citrine. Amethyst is great for the third-eye and was used by the ancient Greeks for sobriety. Citrine is an energetic crystal, which quickly transmutes negativity. Ametrine at my heart chakra should help me transmute any negative energy stuck in my heart, while helping me to remain clear in understanding the greater reasons for my twin’s departure from my physical life to his continued presence on the dream plane and higher levels of my experience.
Green Apatite is the second stone I decided to bring with me today. Blue Apatite is excellent to use for healing broken bones (bones must be set first). It makes sense I chose this Green Apatite today. The color green is associated with the heart chakra. My broken heart still requires healing.
The tarot cards that fell out are the 2 of Cups and Paige of Wands. The 2 of Cups image from the Mystic Dreamer Tarot by Heidi Darras is dreamy, the lovers are together the rod and staff in the background symbolize the twin flame union. The Paige of Wands delivers a message that it is time to stop worrying about the past. It is now that matters.
The planets are starting to get to me. Five days ago, the first breeze of the new energy hit me. Suddenly things I had put off for months were done in mere hours. Yesterday I started feeling pain in my collar bone similar to what I felt during the March Equinox / April Blood Moon Lunar Eclipse of 2015. Nobody wants the Kraken I became released again!
Moon, Pluto, Mars contacts get me where it counts. Mars is in Cancer opposite Pluto in Capricorn. The warrior is getting in touch with its feelings while Pluto goes deep for Phoenix like transformation. Mercury and the Moon are catching up with Mars in Cancer. Mars is the planet if communication, while the Moon represents the mother. Prepare for “Mom” to spread your fragile ego gossip to the point that it’s deeply transformative.
The way this plays out with my natal planets is all very interesting. The transiting M’s (Mars, Mercury, Moon) are hitting my natal Saturn in the first house. Opposite Pluto. Meanwhile the Sun and Venus are giving me the peace out as they exit Leo. Not to mention the Uranus natal Jupiter T-square. Anything could happen.
I get the sense something big might be going down with my way of being in the world and how that relates to relationships and vice versa. I am going to sleep with an apatite tonight, and not the kind that leaves you hungry. This beautiful blue one.
This crystal really helps me connect with my dreams. It improves dream recall and now that I think of it may be the catalyst for getting my house in order. I think it had a lot to do with the planets, the apatite didn’t hurt. Synchronicity abounds.
Lastnight I had a dream about customer service. Someone was really pissed they could not view the crystals I have for sale on my website. I can see the error message from my dream right now. It looks just like the one I see when I’m awake.
Last Saturday my mom was frustrated with my site, because she could not see my crystals. She thought she was doing something wrong. Every time I get started working on it, I get distracted. So the basic structure of the shop is there just not finished.
Time to get a business license too. I need all this stuff ready for the Goddess Festival. It is fun. My clientele will be there. My crystal healing course is close to being finished.
I guess this dream showed up to remind me to get going. People need good vibrations. Crystals have it. I need to share.
Today is a beautiful grey. Clouds shroud the Sun, but its light shines through casting shadows in our living room. We’re home today enjoying time together.
My Self-centered Tarot card of the day is 5, Throat Chakra from The Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck by John Holland. The blue image on the card is a circle within a triangle within a circle surrounded by lotus petals, the throat chakra symbol.
The number five signifies change, realignment, and freedom. The throat chakra is all about truth.
Lastnight I had a powerful dream. I was hoping today’s card would provide some insight. Apparently, the dream is about truth, change, and realignment. All very interesting considering the sexual nature of my dream.
It has been foggy for about the last week. It burns off as the day progresses. This evening the sky was the most beautiful deep dark blue. No words in my vocabulary to portray it’s beauty.
Today’s card is quite interesting to me, mostly because of what happened prior to drawing it. This is a new deck and fun to shuffle! No cards were coming up, so I just kept shuffling. My mind wandered to thoughts of a past relationship.
I quickly realized and told myself not to go there and shook it off. I asked the cards to work with me for the best of the Universe and all involved. Then I realized the card could not come up until the deck was cleared. So, I energized the cards and knocked on them three times. I cleared my mind and asked spirit what I need to know.
I drew 6, The Forest Lovers from the Wild Root Tarot by Mark Ryan and John Matthews with card illustrations by Will Worthington. The image on card says it all.
Ryan and Matthews add depth, “True love comes from joining of two polar energies to create a third force or consciousness. It is an interchange of energy and passion, not the surrender or domination of either but a voluntary exchange of will power and respect.”
Seeing the ribbons tying this couple together and to the tree immediately brought me to an emotional state and back to a powerful dream in which I was being married atop a rocky outcrop underneath an ancient tree. My lover placed a yellow ribbon on my finger. It immediately spun out in all directions astounding me. That is the first and last dream I have ever had about getting married. After that vision I had to center myself with some creative breathing techniques.
Strange how spirit works. Am I not done with that relationship?
Today was a tough day. It all stemmed from a dream I had lastnight. Not a horrible dream, but one that showed me an aspect of myself that needs enlightenment.
Today’s card is Five of Blades, Spiritualist from the Native American Tarot Deck by Magda and J.A. Gonzalez.
The image on the card is that of an old medicine woman. She is looking right at the card’s viewer. She seems to know. She is aware on many levels.
The most interesting aspect of this card to me has to do with my dream. In the dream, I walked down a wooded
path which opened into a meadow on a hillside. I sat on a nearby stone to survey the valley, very much like the medicine woman.
The Gonzalez’s hit the nail on the head, the, “Spiritualist is coming to terms with non-material aspects of life and looking beyond within and backward to adjust.” The Solar eclipse at 0° Scorpio, a visit from karma, and vivid dreams showing me where to improve. I’m definitely “coming to terms” and trying to find balance.