More Here Now
This morning was foggy and cold. I meditated briefly before taking a shower. I should have meditated longer. My mood was just like the astrological weather, Mars cold in the fog who knows where doing who knows what for no reason conjunct Neptune in Pisces.
Mars in my natal chart is in Aries, the fire sign, and opposite Pluto, transformation, in Libra, the sign of balance. Basically that means I have quite a passionate fiery temperament. So, now after a few days of being in this fog, I’m ready to be out! Mercury also went retrograde today. So, I applied for a job. I have to take this Mars aggression out on something.
The tarot card I drew today took me aback a little. The subject’s hair in this one is a real doozy. Today’s self-centeredly drawn tarot card is Queen of Wands from the Wizard’s Tarot by Corrine Kenner illustrated by John J. Blumen.
The image on the card is that of a surreal Medusa. Her blue skin glows in the warmth of the contained fire on either side of her and in her wand. The Moon suggests the woman’s deep emotional connection and state of illumination. Kenner says of the queen, “She is sinewy and strong, willful and dynamic, confident and self-assured.” These are qualities I very much admire. Today I feel tired, weak, emotional, and yet I feel this desire deep within propelling me toward growth.
It seems this card has come to remind me, I am fiery and passionate. Even though this fog has me feeling unsure about my emotions, Neptune has been working with Mars to cut through some dense nebulous stuff in my heart chakra.
There is a powerful cleansing occurring on many levels within. My cells perceive new energy and are rapidly incorporating it into physical healing and nourishment, like another type of nutrient. There is a simultaneous release of old energy and a freeing of my soul to be more here now in the physical. It is painful and it feels so blissfully good. It feels like a great soothing all encompassing love is filling in those spaces left open.
Tomorrow I am going to meditate longer. It really sets the tone for a good day, when done properly.